I had a day where I felt off. Emotional, moody, disconnected. The only thing I wanted to get done was plant some flowers in my yard. A task that seems so simple yet for me with my health it can be a challenge. I finally got the flowers planted in the backyard while the hubs was inside reading and napping (sounds like a dream right?) I was so pooped out but didn't want to go inside to hear, "I told you so." Instead I took my journal and sat on the front porch where I knew no one would find me. I became so emotional and am still not sure why I was so upset. At that time God popped in and my good friend and neighbor drove by (with out her kids in the car). We had a minute to catch up and I totally started crying and venting about everything. Bummed about my health keeping me from doing everything I wanted. Her presence was almost magical. After a minute of talking I felt so much better. It is not often, actually I don't think we have ever stopped to talk like that without either her kids or my kids jumping around us, so I really felt she was a God-sent at that moment and I am grateful. I went back into the house, grabbed my grocery list (since it was dinner time and I had an empty fridge) and I ran off to run my errands. Feeling closer to God I turned on the radio with intent that the first song I heard would be for me. Well, it was the song If I Die Young by the Band Perry so I started to cry, realizing how precious life was and to NOT waste any moments in rotten moods. I went to the post office and stood in a long line feeling more and more calm as the minutes went by. As I left, a good friend called, she found a lump in her breast and needs to have further testing done. We compared how our lumps felt (I found one and will be having a biopsy very soon) and we talked about how God has His plan. I went to the grocery store feeling closer to God than I had in a while. I know He is always right next to me but today he held my hand, spoke to me, comforted me.
I'm linking up with Katie from minivan diva today.