I am a sensitive and emotional girl. I always have been, even though I often pretend not to be, I know I always will be. I try to change it, but not for me. I try to toughen up, but not for me. I put on a smile when I hurt and sometimes a nervous giggle will come out when I want to cry. It's who I am and I actually don't want to change it. I try to be brave for my children, but why? If I show a tough exterior for them they will feel they need to be tough and I want them to feel with all their heart. It's ok to be scared, it's ok to feel sad. Sometimes that is where more love comes from. If I am hurting or sad, I always come out on the other side fuller of love and joy. It's ok to have so much joy in your heart that you feel you might burst. To have so much laughter in your life that you are known for your uncontrollable snort. We shouldn't have to suppress our happiness, ever. I remember getting in trouble in class numerous times for laughing. I understand if classmates are being disruptive, telling jokes, not paying attention. But I would get the giggles for no apparent reason. Or I would think of something really funny and have to control myself. I was told to leave the classroom until I could regain my composure. I sat outside laughing so hard I had tears running down my eyes and intense pain in my abdomen. I have laughed out loud while walking alone because of a funny thought. That is ok. It is because I feel. I feel with all my heart. Good and bad. I shouldn't be punished either way for feeling.