When the pain becomes too much to handle, when the emotions get the best of you and you fall apart. You cry in the shower, you cry when changing the sheets, you cry when making breakfast, and you cry alone. Alone because you have no one to turn to. No one to understand where the tears are coming from. Not even completely sure yourself where they are coming from, but you know you are hurting. Something or someone is causing an extreme amount of pain and heartache. But why? Why can't I figure out an answer? On my knees I plead with Him, because He is the only one I can turn to. He is the only one who knows, who listens and who answers. But waiting for the answer takes faith and patience. Why God, why? Why me? Why now?
After crying so hard for so long you finally stop. You get that feeling where you can take a clean breath... maybe it is out of complete exhaustion or maybe He is comforting you. It is time to let go of the why's and let Him lead. Maybe the tears were because you wanted something you thought you should have, but He is telling you no, I have something much better for you. Just wait.