It's been a while since I have taken the time to sit down and write. I miss it. The kids are lying in my bed watching Full House and since I have seen this episode (15 years ago) I decided to take the time to give a little update.
I am going in for surgery on Wednesday. Ok, I will back up. I have been experiencing pelvic pain for several months. After trying a couple different things I finally had an ultrasound. The first ultrasound showed nothing which left me feeling so defeated. I knew I had pain but not knowing what was causing it was so frustrating. My doctor referred me to a gynecologist to further investigate. I mentioned I had been having some abdominal pain which I was sure was constipation or gas. After an examination she determined I would be needing a laperscopic surgery to take a look inside and see what was going on. I've had a few of these procedures before and wasn't too pumped on the idea of being put under. Especially for gas. I had another ultrasound, both a pelvic and abdominal. I left the imaging center a little frustrated because I didn't feel the tech was very thorough. Not that I know much about ultrasounds, actually I don't know anything and when looking at the screen I kept looking for a baby. Didn't find one. The process was supposed to take 30-45 minutes and I was back in my car less than 10 minutes later. A few days later I received a call to schedule surgery so I went ahead and put it on the books for the following week. After hanging up I wondered why I was having surgery.... So I called back and spoke with a nurse. She read me the radiology report in her sweet upbeat voice, telling me that there was a growth on my ovary and two tumors on my liver. Except that she used all medical terminology so I had her spell each word so I could look it up later. Huge mistake. When will I learn to not google medical symptoms or diagnosis'? The doctor called me the next day to explain that she will go in and remove what is on my ovary and take a look around to see what else might be going on. She said that I will need to be referred to a GI specialist after my recovery so he can take care of my liver. The tumors on my liver aren't an emergency and could wait a month but they will continue to grow and possibly rupture so they need to be taken care of.
So there you have it. I haven't been writing because I have been busy growing things in my body.
The idea of anesthesia freaks me out. The idea of feeling pain for a few days, freaks me out. Knowing that my body won't bounce back the way it should makes me nervous for what's to come. While I am looking forward to staying in bed, catching up on t.v, reading, and getting rest, I'm not looking forward to the discomfort of walking to the bathroom or any discomfort for that matter.
"There was never a night or a problem that could defeat sunrise or hope" B Williams
I know exactly how you feel. I'm always very wary of any surgery now for all of those reasons..... it's not easy being "us". I'll be thinking of you and praying for you and I'm happy that they know what's wrong and can fix it. That you won't be in that pain anymore at least after all of this. How are you feeling otherwise? Have you stabilized for the most part?
ReplyDeletekaren, i think of you and pray for you all the time. i'm so so sorry you're going through this and experiencing such pain. you won't leave my thoughts and prayers.
ReplyDeletesending so much love and praying for healing and peace. <3<3<3
maria
Karen,
ReplyDeleteSo sorry you're having to deal with this. Love you lots and wishing you a speedy recovery.
I will be keeping you in my prayers. It can be so hard to understand why things happen the way they do. I am sorry you are having to deal with all of this. I wish you a quick recovery!
ReplyDeleteSo sorry to hear about this. I had a large tumor on my ovary when I was younger (the size of a cantaloupe), the pain was minimal and so was the recovery. I'm sending my prayers for your doctors to be gentle and to work well, and for peace for you and your family!
ReplyDeleteWill pray for you so that you will have a speedy recovery as well as pray for the doctors so that they will restore you back to good health.
ReplyDeleteGoing under isn't bad at all, as with most things the anxiety is the worst part. I hope the surgery helps your pelvic pain. I have had cysts on my overies and I know they are very painful. Enjoy relaxing and let your family pamper you to death while your down. Praying for you sweetie!
ReplyDeleteI am sorry to hear you will have to go through surgery Karen, I understand your frightened and just want you to know that I am thinking of you and wish you nothing but the best xo
ReplyDeleteAh, sweet friend. I am sending you great giants hugs (the gentle kind). You are such a rockstar and your grace amazes me. My advice is to just let them know you're nervous about the anesthesia, as soon as you get changed into your gown and into your bed. But, the good news is that you'll have someone who does this as their job, and so it's the simplest thing in the world. My guy was sooo nice!! He calmed my nerves like wow and then 5 seconds later I fell asleep, and woke up after. Both surgeries have worked like this for me.
ReplyDeleteI love you and I'm just so so sorry that this is what your week is going to look like. I'm really mad for you. Praying for you—promise!
Hi Karen, I'm
ReplyDeletepraying that all goes well and that you recover fast. You are such a fun mom,I enjoy all your posts. Have a great evening dear. Give my love to your sweet family.
Sincerely,
Hajar
ill be praying for you on wednesday karen that God would give the surgeons steady hands and for a fast recovery for you
ReplyDeletePraying for a uncomplicated surgery and speedy recovery!:)
ReplyDeleteEmily
Hey Karen,
ReplyDeleteThinking of you, wondering how your surgery went...I hope and pray well.
Praying for a speedy recovery.
XOXO
Beck
praying that it all went well karen. xxo
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