When the pain becomes too much to handle, when the emotions get the best of you and you fall apart. You cry in the shower, you cry when changing the sheets, you cry when making breakfast, and you cry alone. Alone because you have no one to turn to. No one to understand where the tears are coming from. Not even completely sure yourself where they are coming from, but you know you are hurting. Something or someone is causing an extreme amount of pain and heartache. But why? Why can't I figure out an answer? On my knees I plead with Him, because He is the only one I can turn to. He is the only one who knows, who listens and who answers. But waiting for the answer takes faith and patience. Why God, why? Why me? Why now?
After crying so hard for so long you finally stop. You get that feeling where you can take a clean breath... maybe it is out of complete exhaustion or maybe He is comforting you. It is time to let go of the why's and let Him lead. Maybe the tears were because you wanted something you thought you should have, but He is telling you no, I have something much better for you. Just wait.
I just want to give you the biggest hug. I can certainly relate to how this feels. You're absolutely right - sometimes He is the only one we have to turn to.
ReplyDeleteI heard something in church the other week that reminded me of what you said at the end. We were discussing how sometimes we have a really hard time letting go of something and we pray about it and pray about it. The Lord promises us that if we let go, He will give us SO much more!! Sending good thoughts and lots of prayers your way. Stay strong, beautiful!
So beautiful. Thinking of you today.
ReplyDeleteI know how you feel... I do this often. It's very isolating to live with what we live with and it's nice to know we do have Him to turn to when we need it.
ReplyDeleteLetting go and trusting in Him is something I struggle with daily.
ReplyDeleteawww lady.
ReplyDeleteThis post is beautiful and you are doing exactly what you should be doing... letting go and trusting Him!
*hugs*
I remember many many seasons like this---and God IS bigger isn't He, that is what is so beautiful about Him!!! thanks for sharing!
ReplyDeleteI understand this feeling, on some level though can only imagine all you are going through, but do think that you are so right that a good cry is healthy from time to time and clear the air and make you feel refreshed in its own way, though yes, often exhausted too! Sending lots of hugs and smiles your way! :) :) :)
ReplyDeletePraying for you! Faith in God includes faith in His timing! << One of my favorite quotes.
ReplyDeleteI have known this that you talk about. It's what comes after that brings refreshing when he cleanses your soul through the crying and reaching out to HIM. I pray for peace my dear friend. HUGS <3
ReplyDeleteThanks for your honesty! I am sorry to hear you had a " hurt" / bad day. Praying for a great nights sleep and a new day tomorrow. Love you lots Karen and are so inspired by your strength! Jess
ReplyDeleteI hope you're pain free today, and you're in my heart and thoughts always.
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Oh Karen, thinking of you and sending lots of love xo
ReplyDeletethinking of you. i've been there. sometimes a good cry is a good thing. xo
ReplyDeleteAbsolutely beautiful! It's definitely relatable & crying can bring a lot of peace once you get it all out. I love reading Matthew 6:34 when I stress out and become emotional because it brings me back to a calm and thankful state.
ReplyDelete"Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own."
-Kayla from Love Sparkle Pretty
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I've had many good cries in the shower. Maybe is the warmth of the water as your tears flow freely. The release of the fear and letting it all go. Surrendering everything to God. He's got you!
ReplyDeleteBeautiful post. I've been there.
ReplyDeleteOh yes many cries in the shower, I find it a good thing as I am so relieved after letting it out. Miss talking to you, hope everything is well!
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